Supposed to watch Kung Fu panda with blazers junior today. But I was later, super late. So they guys changed plan to pool. Played for an hour, cause its ex. 9$/hr. Lunch at superdog. 1st time lunching at there. Hahs! I know its kind of slow of me.

Bused to sch for training. Wanted to play basketball, but stayed with Fiona to pratice thumbling. I will work hard on cartwheels. I CAN DO IT! Can do handstand finally, but must practice to not arch, kick and keep my legs straight.

Did hand motion at 1st. Was super hyper lah, keep smiling. See I want to bring joy and laughter to everyone. Then practice for the performance. My leg and shoulder were super pain today. Its like aching, but I said nth cause they practicing a new routine. I will numb myself from the pain!

Listen to their advice again. I understand all the facts alrdy, but why can't i just do it. JUST F***ing let go (sorry herng, need to use tt word to show how eager i want to let go). What's so hard. JUST LET GO, LET GO LET GO LET GO!!!! Don't care about anything!!!! Don't care about what I think, what he thinks, what other people think and what impossible possibilites. URGH!!!!